By: Kasela Kalebwe
A while back in bible class, we learnt about
bad things happening to good people…
It was a pretty helpful lesson, but not one
that stuck cause even though I had come across some bumps across the road, many
of them I dug up myself, lol. And every so often, I still do.
But more recently, I faced a ‘bump’ that I
thought that even I – the trouble maker that I am, didn’t quite deserve. It
turned my life upside. I lost my pillar, my beautiful mother. One minute she
was shouting at me for not calling enough, and as the defiant daughter, I
thought she was being melodramatic and the next she was gone and I sat there
like an idiot wishing I had called her every minute of every day.
#harshlessonmuch
If I may put it as blankly as I felt, my world
turned upside down. The person I would call when no one could understand was
gone. And I felt the deepest, most painful loss ever. I prayed so much for what
I thought would be Gods mercy to have Him give her back to me. When that
request wasn’t being answered, I asked for Him to take me instead. You know how
they say, “Can things get any worse?” And then they did… He didn’t seem to
agree with my suggestions to fix the problem so I got upset! I got mighty upset
with God… And the irony is, it didn’t make me feel any better, if anything, the
sense of loss just dug deeper. . .
