Hi lovelies!
Transition periods for me always trigger periods of self reflection. I think it's the feeling of being in limbo or maybe it's because I finally slow down enough to take everything in and think. I'm an overthinker by nature but there's something about getting time to stop and think that allows me to take it a step further into heart work.
No one tells you how chaotic heart work can be.
How real self love is hours of self examination, learning, unlearning and growing into a better version of yourself. Even when you thought you were a good (enough) person and that you've achieved what you'd set out to do in that season. How you'll have to turn your world upside down before putting it right side up again.
No one tells you how no matter how introverted or ambiverted you think you are that it can be lonely. That introspection means shutting outside voices out and some people may take offence at that. That you're going to have to spend a lot of time looking within, analysing behaviours or reactions, reading several books on different topics to help you be a better you or even getting therapy to help you unpack things you're not qualified to do on your own. That you will not come out the same person and that not everyone will be comfortable with that.
No one tells you how frustrated you'll be.
How just because you're evolving and being enlightened that doesn't mean the people around you are too. That you're going to be tested often as you try to navigate conversations and relationships in general. And how your response to uncomfortable situations will show you your progress (or lack thereof).
No one tells you how sad you'll be.
When you realise all your shortcomings or how you thought you were communicating effectively but you really weren't. When you figure out that sometimes, you're the problem. Or when you see that although you had good intentions, you weren't showing up as your authentic self by making yourself small to make space for other people.
No one tells you that your heart will have to break in order to heal.
That you may realise you've outgrown certain situations and that you may have to move on in order to facilitate the growth you are trying to achieve. How your favourite things or people may have served you well in one season but they may not in the next. That you'll probably have to say several goodbyes to make room for new hellos.
No one tells you how much bargaining with God you'll do.
How much time you'll spend talking to Him and how much He'll talk to you once He finally has your full attention. How you may realise that the life you had planned for yourself may not be what He has planned for you. How the five stages of grief you'll go through are perfectly acceptable because you are mourning the person you were as you fully embrace the person you are and who you are called to be. And that's frightening because change is always scary no matter how intentional you are about it.
And no one tells you how it never ends.
How although you may feel like you're done for now and are happy with the progress you've made, that there's always more work to do. Always more to learn and definitely more growing to do. How with the end of each season and the start of the next you'll be required to look within once again and allow God to work on you.
I'll be the one to tell you that although it may not seem like it during the process, the results will be beautiful especially when you submit everything to God. And that although it seems long, you will get to the other side of it. Because in order to become better at something, work needs to be done.
No one tells you how frustrated you'll be.
How just because you're evolving and being enlightened that doesn't mean the people around you are too. That you're going to be tested often as you try to navigate conversations and relationships in general. And how your response to uncomfortable situations will show you your progress (or lack thereof).
No one tells you how sad you'll be.
When you realise all your shortcomings or how you thought you were communicating effectively but you really weren't. When you figure out that sometimes, you're the problem. Or when you see that although you had good intentions, you weren't showing up as your authentic self by making yourself small to make space for other people.
No one tells you that your heart will have to break in order to heal.
That you may realise you've outgrown certain situations and that you may have to move on in order to facilitate the growth you are trying to achieve. How your favourite things or people may have served you well in one season but they may not in the next. That you'll probably have to say several goodbyes to make room for new hellos.
No one tells you how much bargaining with God you'll do.
How much time you'll spend talking to Him and how much He'll talk to you once He finally has your full attention. How you may realise that the life you had planned for yourself may not be what He has planned for you. How the five stages of grief you'll go through are perfectly acceptable because you are mourning the person you were as you fully embrace the person you are and who you are called to be. And that's frightening because change is always scary no matter how intentional you are about it.
And no one tells you how it never ends.
How although you may feel like you're done for now and are happy with the progress you've made, that there's always more work to do. Always more to learn and definitely more growing to do. How with the end of each season and the start of the next you'll be required to look within once again and allow God to work on you.
I'll be the one to tell you that although it may not seem like it during the process, the results will be beautiful especially when you submit everything to God. And that although it seems long, you will get to the other side of it. Because in order to become better at something, work needs to be done.
Bisous!
x
Hai I really love this.I believe self introspection shows one has a desire to grow,a desire for purity and living a sanctified life.I believe for us to grow and live a sanctified life we need to constantly examine ourselves and do it sincerely and in the light of the scriptures.I can only say it's a beautiful thing to do.
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