Monday 3 April 2023

Work in Progress

"assuming that you have heard about him and were taught in him, as the truth is in Jesus, to put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness."
Ephesians 4:21‭-‬24

I used to think of intentional silence as punishment.
Actually, if we're being honest, I still do. It's a work in progress.
However I'm learning to trust God and know that certain people leaving my life whether for periods of time or for good may be just what I need to tune out outside noise and to lean heavily on Him.
Although my transition period has helped me to unpack that quite a bit, and now I know it's more of a boundary issue, I still think it's a shock to my system when people who know I feel that way do it to me. I definitely still count the days but with each passing one it gets a little easier and I'm a step closer to being in a better place. Reminding myself that people will do what they want to and that life must go on has been a help though.

I used to (unknowingly) think of myself as a fixer.
Actually, if we're being honest, I still do. It's a work in progress.
I'm actively unlearning this and learning to support my people through whatever they're going through rather than wanting to fix everything and make it better when I think it should be. I couldn't do it even if I tried hard. This and knowing that ultimately they need to go to God who knows all things and can fix all things. They need to turn to the creator and protector of the universe.